Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Angel you're betrayed me.....
I went out last friday, on Christmas eve. I met someone I didn't really wanna see. It's been a year since I last saw him. And time really flies. Was that my Christmas present? If that's really my present, I wouldn't wanna receive it. He was the one who made me to become the person I am today. This might sound crazy but I've changed because of him. I thought after my form 3, I wouldn't see him anymore. But no, I met him again in form 4. Then I thought it was the last. But no, I met him yet again in form 5. And I thought it was really the last time cuz I won't be in Ipoh anymore and he would leaving Ipoh cuz of uni. But no, even though I was not in Ipoh tis year, I met him yet again during Christmas. It's like his image haunts me...ok, it is not that scary la but still. I really don't inted to see him anymore. Hopefully I won't see him again on New Year's Eve.
Well, time really flies. Christmas passed and New Year's just around the corner. Eu Jin asked me today if I have any New Year resolution. I haven't really thought of it yet actually. I guess these few days is the time for me to really think deep about it.
I've fulfilled my duty as a friend. I've already burned their fav songs into a cd and send them a sopy each. But there's one I forgot to send... ah, never mind, I'll send later. Hopefully he doeesn't mind.
I went for The Phantom Of The Opera yet again and cry yet again. I heard from Elwyn that Kit didn't really enjoy the show. She thinks that it's funny as it doesn't make sense at all. And she has no idea why I would cry watching that show. Well Kit, maybe this is not the kind of movie you like to watch. But personally I really like it a lot. The songs are wondefull and the costume and everything. The storyline is really touching and I really pity the phantom a lot. That's the reason I could cry. It's a really touching movie.....
I didn't talk to him ever since then. Should I tell him? More and more problems arising and I have no idea if I should tell him. Suddenly I just feeling losing him as a friend is the best choice. I felt so betrayed. And he's not the person that I used to know anymore. It hurts a lot knowing this fact. I'm gonna try to get an oppurtunity to talk to him and tell him everything.
Results will be out very soon and I am freakin worried about it. One more day, just one more day and I will know what my future lies ahead of me. Pray hard that I manage to get good grades.
Past the point of right or wrong,
One final question,
How long shall we wait before we're one?
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 7:09 PM |
Friday, December 24, 2004
Ho ho ho, Merry Christmas!!
Ho ho ho, Merry Christmas!!
Well, I miss the good old times. Last year this time, I was in Las Vegas, driving around. Hopping from casino to casino taking pictures, looking at people gambling (cause I can't gamble - under age) without bothering the fact that it is already Christmas. But the atmosphere is still there. There are still people wishing everyone Merry Christmas. I remember that there is this handsome looking guy who came up to me and wished me Merry Christmas and I wished him in return. I miss the atmosphere.
Missing someone badly? Yes. I miss my friends in KL. Frankly speaking, I have no idea but I have a very weird feeling that my group of friends are breaking up. It's as though more and more people are not keepin in touch. Gosh, what has happened? Tomorrow it's Christmas eve and my group of friends are not out to meet up. Isn't it a bit sad?
I met Siew Yen today, one of my closest friends of all in Ipoh. She's one who I did not lose touch with. Haha, guess what? I promised that I will go watch Phantom Of The Opera with her again on Monday. Haha, I am a freak. I just wanna watch Phantom Of The Opera and enjoy the show yet again. I promise myself that I will buy the DVD to watch again when the ORIGINAL copy is out. I will also not miss out the soundtrack, the extended ersion with dialogues and etc.
Wishing you were somehow here again......................
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 4:41 PM |
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Angel of music guide and guardian, Grant to me your glory, I am your angel of music, Come to me angel of music......
Welcome again my friend. I am extremely happy today as I went for a wonderful movie today. The Phantom Of The Opera. A wonderful classic musical play...mean opera. The songs are still ringing in my head.... gosh, real nice movie. EVERYBODY GO WATCH....even though it is not as nice as the original opera sang by Sarah Brightman but this is a good version. Wanna know more info, visit my multiply. I went out with my friends today. Very happy that our friendship is really getting better and better. God bless. I believe someday it will return back to normal. But I sort of argued with one of them. He kept on playing with my earrings and it hurts as he accidentally pulled it. I was angry at him and I didn't talk to him after that. He miscalled me twice but I didn't reply his miscall. Well, tomorrow back to work. Hopefully this joyful day of mine will remain. Especially till Christmas and the rest of the year 2004. I don't wanna be in a masquerade anymore, especially next year. Pray for the best!!
Raoul:
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears,
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
My words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedome,
Let daylight dry your ears,
I'm here, with you, beside you,
To guard you and to guide you.
Christine:
All I ask is every waking moment,
Turn my head with talk of summertime,
Say you need me with you now and always,
Promise me that all you say is true,
That's all I ask of you.
Raoul:
Let me be your shelter,
Let me be your light,
You're safe, no one will find you,
Your fears are far behind you.
Christine:
All I want is freedome,
A world with no more night,
And you, always beside me,
To hold me and to hide me.
Raoul:
Then say you'll share with me one love, one life-time,
Let me lead you from your solitude,
Say you need me with you, here beside you,
Anywhere you go let me go too,
Christine, that's all I ask of you.
Christine:
All I ask for is one love, one life-time,
Say the word and I will follow you,
Together:
Share each day with me, each night, each morning,
Christine:
Say you love me
Raoul:
You know I do
Together:
Love me, that's all I ask of you
(Music)
Together:
Anywhere you go, let me go too;
Love me, that's all I ask of you.
This is a song, one of my favourites from The Phantom Of The Opera, All I Ask Of You. Enjoy!!
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 2:32 PM |
Sunday, December 19, 2004
I realise one thing, I love to write title of my blog with song titles. Anywayz, how's is everyone? Aha..some must be pretty bored with holidayz, am I right?
Well, Joey is way far away from me now.....
CHOI!!!
Soung as though she's dead.... nope, she's in NS now. I won't be able to see her not until maybe Chinese New Year. I do really hope that I will be able to see her during Chinese New Year. Gosh, I am so so gonna miss her. I already miss her so much when I left KL...guys, not to worry, I miss everyone when I left KL. Gosh, this is real bad. I can't imagine the future, when all of us leave for university.
I received a Christmas card from Joey. I shed tears when I read the card and receive such a wonderful necklace from her. Just to let Joey know, I REALLY APPRECIATE IT. It does bring back a lot of memories to me- all the things we do, we say...Gosh, I really miss it a lot.
At last, the song that I wanted, Holy Moment by Sonic Flood and Matt Redman, I manage to download. It is so hard to get one particular song man. Though there's another song but I failed to connect to user. So, sorry la, have to wait!!!
Well, I am really adapting better to work now. Everyone talks to me, not like last time, not that lonely anymore. But one thing I really do not like about them; they are real fake at times. They can be real nice to you but at the same time talk behind your back! Gosh, I can't believe it man. "Welcome to the real world, my friend. This is the beginning of you into the world of work!" That is what runs in my mind all the time. And I remember one of my colleague asked me yesterday, if you are in a situation where people talk behind your back, what will you do? I told her I will act as though nothing happened and just keep quiet. Frankly speaking, I am kinda used to the fact people talk about me behind my back. Though at first I can get real irritated but I ignore it later.
Gosh, a month after awards nite passed but the spirit still lives within me! I can still remember every single thing that happened that night, how crazy we were screamin at the guys for not entering our room or start knocking on out door....bla bla. Looking back the pics we took during awards night makes me cry. Listening to the cd makes me cry too.
Seeing him happy makes me feel happy too. But it might be bad. But it might be good. I am talking about the "to-tell-or-not-to-tell" guy. Haha, well I guess I will just seriously keep quiet about it. For those of you who know the real story..haha, I think you guys agree with me!!
Friendship with friends I guess are getting back to sort of normal. Better than last time. More positive now. So, if I continue like this maybe it's a good sign.
I can't wait for Christmas. It's such a lovely season.............
I decorated my Christmas tree... I took pictures with Santa too..haha, the fake version..will post it up later after I've scanned it!!
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:09 PM |
Saturday, December 18, 2004
"I didn't take any picture with you!" said Xavier.
"Oh really? Sorry, one day maybe," I said.
A few months passed but these two lines still runs in my head. I am now in a place where tears run down like heavy rainy days, laughter that is so fake I can't even believe myself-I am wearing a mask that I do not want to wear. Far away from everyone, close to no one but myself. When I opened the same good old book, I will remember everything that happened a few years back that makes me who I am today.
"Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!"
I was surprised to see everyone in my house. It was the crucial year where all of us will face the paper before moving on to junior high. Gosh, I can't believe what I see. All my close friends, best friend and a few unknown people though but it was back then. Did all the usual thing - sing the birthday song, make a wish, cut the cake and start eating.
I was introduced to him. The guy that I will never forget. From the first time I saw him, I knew our eyes meet. He was a senior, senior high. The same hairstyle nearly every guy has that time - the Nick Carter look. He has chesnut brown hair, attractive brown eyes, heart-shaped face with broad shoulders, tall and thin, well not that thin, not that fat, just perfect. He was as tall as 5 feet 11. Gosh, I will never forget him.
"Hey, Jess, meet Brian. Brian, this is Jessica. We usually call her Jess," introduced Theressa.
"Hello, Jess. Happy birthday. You must feel so blessed to have such great friends. I am glad that I am invited to such a wonderful party," said Brian.
"Hello, Brian. Nice meeting you too," I replied.
"Oh my God, I can't believe my own eyes. Such a nice guy," I said to myself. I excuse myself and get along with some of my other friends. The whole night through I can't stop myself from looking at him. The way he talked, laughed about, just about everything. "But will this be the last time I see him?" I thought.
But no, God gave me the greatest birthday gift ever. He gave me another surprise.
"Hey, Jess. I am sorry but I gotta leave first. Maybe can I have your number and we meet up again someday?" said Brian.
"Sure no problem. Come here, I'll write down my number and e-mail address for you. Remember to call me out once in a while."
He left. Soon, the party ended. I went back to my room and recall every single thing that happened that night and dropped it down in my little book.
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 7:22 PM |
Oh Holy Night,
The stars are brightly shining.....
Well, what a day. Yesterday, a new colleague of mine got fired. So, we're lack of workers to work. Job, job, job. Today is Amirul's birthday and I am suppose to go down to KL to surprise him but nope can't do cuz one of my colleague is on leave for wedding dinner in Johor. No choice but to stay here in Ipoh...SORRY YA FEISAL....
Talked to my best friend today. She asked me if there's anything wrong with me. I didn't tell her anything as I know it will hurt her a lot. I think I deserve this as I did this to her before - ignoring her. I believe this is my punishment.
I don't really wanna bother about M anymore. Like what one of my friend, PT said, if she wants to choose that path and ignore you, then you should just ignore her too..... So, I guess I just have to give up one friend and hope that I gain another.
To tell not to tell?......I had a great thought about it. I think for the mean time I'll just leave it alone. I don't wanna hurt his feelings. I believe I will just let it be for the moment.
By the way people, from today onwards, I might start writing stories, well that's if I am in a mood. Ignore me cuz at times I love to write. HAHA....just read la...dun worry, it will be in other colour....
Gosh, his songs are so hard to get. I've tried downloading here and there but I failed to connect to the user. Well, now it is downloading halfway. Pray hard that it will be done and I will be able to send it out.
Lindsay Lohan's song, Rumours is quite nice. PEOPLE, CALL ME MAD AND I AM. JUST WANNA LET YOU KNOW THAT THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA RAWKS......IT'S A WONDERFUL PLAY INDEED....WATCH IT!!!!!
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 6:36 PM |
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
What more can I say? Fill with disappointment and sadness. Tears will run out very soon. Heart smashed into pieces.....
Wow, I sound very 'd pei'. Haha...well, it's true.
I saw my close friend, M again. But then, she didn't even take the effort to say hello. Apparently, she's really angry at me. For what reason, I have no idea. Maybe because I am close to her ex, that's why. But am I wrong being close to someone? We're just friends. Someone once told me that whenever I am with her ex when they were still together, she feels very insecure. Gosh... I felt bad after that and I never talk to her ex anymore but it's real weird if I don't. It's not that I am sensitive or what but it's really proven that she's angry at me. There was this once when PT was online, and of course I was online too, she invited me into their conversation. Not long after I have joined the conersation, M left. Later on, PT asked M why did she left the conversation? She told PT that she and me 'tak ngam d'. Isn't that sad to hear?
Besides that..the "to tell or not to tell" problem is still not over. It is still bothering me one in a while. Tried not to think of it. But when I try not to think of it, dat fella will just appear online and talk to me. Gosh...I have no idea what to do. He already starts to complain that I am treating him cool, not talking to him much, and our conversations are very very dry. When I see him face to face, I have to wear a thick mask and act. Am I casting for The Phantom Of The Opera? I think I qualify to become the Phantom.
Sigh. Another thing is I am disappointed, real disappointed. I tried calling my best friend, but she is not around. Then when I message her and told her I need to talk, she asked me to call her at night. But just now, she message me and told me, can we talk tomorrow instead? She knows I wouldn't do that if I don't really need to talk. I tried askin her out yesterday, but she turn me down. Ever since I am back, all she tells me is all about D. And seriously, I never get a chance to talk to her like the way we used to.
Gosh, everything change. I seriously do think so. Joey, you're right. I can't be mentioning their names 24/7 or telling them about you guys. And friends do come and go. Well, I guess I will lose a big bunch of friends...
*sobs sobs*
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 4:48 PM |
Monday, December 13, 2004
Yahoo!! I am off today from work. At last, after one week of tiring work, I have a day break. Man it was a busy week for me. Work and work and work. Nothing but work, home, tv, sleep. Boring life but better than nothing.
Well, I went out today with a few of my old high school mates and a few of their friends(guys). Guess what, actually, I realise one thing. When I left for studies in KL, things changed. I mean not them but it's just that I can't mix with them as much as I could last time. I've tried talking to them but doesn't really work. It's like when I tell them stories about my KL friends, they will just sit down patiently and listen and vice versa. And some of my other friends are just way too busy to talk with me now, if you know what I mean. Tried calling and talking to them, it's either they're not around or it's like we'll run out of topic to talk about. Though they still care for me and support me, but the feeling is just way much different compared to last time. When I was with them today, I seriously felt lost, as though I am lost in the woods.
Where is the laughter, you used to bring me?
Why can't I hear music play?
My world is changing, I'm rearranging,
Does that mean Christmas changes too....
I was listening to this song by Faith Hill, Where Are You Christmas and I manage to drop down these few lines. It's very meaningful though it's real sad.
It's true what it said. My world is really changing and I will have to face loads and loads of challenges that will come in the future. I am rearranging myself to prepare myself to see the world. I can't really hear the music play as I am thinking about life.
I am really really sad because of a few things but at the same time, feel so blessed. I think I shouldn't really think too much and enjoy my last month of 2004 with a happy ending. I wanna recall all the things I did this year with my bunch of lovely friends. Thanks bunch and miss you guys really really a lot... FOYER GROUP & AUSMAT FAMILY RAWKS!!!!!!!!!
Oh, just to let you guys know. The reunion gathering- the reason why I make it 5 years from now because by then, all of us would have graduated (hopefully) and we're more free to get together, compare to every year or every two years. So, hopefully we manage to do this!! Keep in touch guys and make sure I will, hopefully get to see you guys bring someone along to the gathering.....haha....
Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear the music play
My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too
Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go
Christmas is here everywhere, oh
Christmas is here if you care, oh
If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time
I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here in silence
Fills each and every heart with love
Where are you Christmas
Fills your heart with love
Faith Hill - Where Are You Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear the music play
My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too
Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go
Christmas is here everywhere, oh
Christmas is here if you care, oh
If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time
I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here in silence
Fills each and every heart with love
Where are you Christmas
Fills your heart with love
Faith Hill - Where Are You Christmas
What a beautiful song. Hope you guys like it!!!
By the way, forgot to mention. I watched Ocean's Twelve today and personally I think it is nice. But a real good warning. IF YOU GUYS WANNA WATCH THIS SHOW IN PARTICULAR, PLEASE PLEASE DO WATCH OCEAN'S ELEVEN FIRST OR ELSE YOU WILL BE SO SO SOSO BLUR LIKE MY FRIENDS.....HAVE FUN!!!!
By the way, forgot to mention. I watched Ocean's Twelve today and personally I think it is nice. But a real good warning. IF YOU GUYS WANNA WATCH THIS SHOW IN PARTICULAR, PLEASE PLEASE DO WATCH OCEAN'S ELEVEN FIRST OR ELSE YOU WILL BE SO SO SOSO BLUR LIKE MY FRIENDS.....HAVE FUN!!!!
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 9:07 PM |
Saturday, December 11, 2004
"We've come into this holy place,
To bring a sacrifice of praise......"
Praise the Lord as He has answered my prayer. I was searching for this one particular song for a very long time ...(well, not too long, just a few days..hehe) and at last, I manage to download it. Sadly, there's left 8% to download but the user left. I do not need a reason to angry with God. I must not be angry at Him. It's all fated. Pray hard I can finish downloading it from the user soon. But yet another happy thing is the song, Dare You To Move, I manage to finish download after two weeks I've tried. Praise the Lord!!!!
X-mas is just around the corner. Hmm...loads of things to do!! Need to decorate the X-mas tree, clean up the house a little, send X-mas cards, shop for pressies and etc. Christmas is the best celebration. The feeling of X-mas just makes everyone feel calm, peace and harmony, joy and laughter...HOHOHO, Merry Christmas. I lurve it!!
I was talking to ma cha bo roomie Carina. All the memories of Ausmat fly pass one by one. How I met everyone, all the crazy things we did, then went for ghost hunting at night while we were studyin at the foyer, running up to our favourite spot on the 4th floor just to see beautiful view n sing song.... not forgetting studyin at they foyer..whenever the guys finishes earlier, they will bully the science students..tryin to annoy them... goin Titiwangsa just to watch SUNRISE....and many many more. I can't name them all. These are just a few. Part by part maybe.
"Your're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you
You'll be like heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you
Pardon the way that I stare
There's nothing else to compare
This sight of you leaves me weak
There are no words left to speak
But if you feel like I feel
Please let me know if it's real
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you
I love you baby
And if it's quite alright
I need you baby
Through all the lonely nights
I love you baby
Trust in me when I say
Oh pretty baby
Don't bring me down I pray
Oh pretty baby
Now that I found you stay
And let me love you baby
Let me love you"
Carina Lee, hahaha..that's for you to remember the lyrics properly...Joking only. But that's the song Carina and I always like to sing. Haha, hopefully all of us Ausmat people will remain friends forever. Remember guys, we shall have a reunion 5 years from now!!
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 6:53 PM |
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
So why are you running away??
Today when I was working, I saw one of my closest friend. But we didn't talk ever since she came back from national service or maybe I should say, ever since she broke up with her boyfriend..(dat fella whih turns out to be my best guy friend) Anywayz, I didn't notice it was her. I think she saw me but then she quickly turn to her friend and whispered to her and she walked off. She didn't even come and say hello. I seriously have no idea why. I heard from my best friend a few months back saying she's angry at me. When I asked her why? My best friend didn't have a clue at all... Well, maybe it's because of her ex-bf, which is my best friend now. Maybe she's jealous because I am close to him. But there are a lot of reasons to it. Untill today, I didn't manage to find out.
Well I am glad that I can still keep in touch with loads of my Ausmat friends. Haha..tis is so cool. I can't wait to meet up with them again. Looking back at the pictures and clips makes me wonder a lot..
Another thing is I am happy and glad that at last, there is no communication problem at all now between me and my colleagues. Haha, we talked a lot today and it was great, real great. God bless.
Another excitement is....CHRISTMAS IS COMING SOON. My favourite celebration of all. I have no idea why. Maybe I know that the end year is coming and a new beggining is gonna begin soon?..neh..just the feeling of X-Mas makes me feel warm and loved.
And have yourself, a merry little christmas now...........
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:58 PM |
Monday, December 06, 2004
Action speaks louder than words.......
Now words can't even describe how I feel....emotionless? No.. I'm still laughing at silly jokes cracked by my colleagues. Feel down when I listen to sad crappy love songs. Missing someone badly? Erm...yeah. But why somehow I feel as though I am so emotionless. Maybe I've been thinking too much lately. Thinking about things that I shouldn't have been thinking, or maybe I should say, bothering me. I guess that's why I feel so emotionless.
Well, I felt good that everyone supported me to tell him. But guys, I am afraid I don't have the guts!! He's not really talking to me lately. Busy? Maybe yeah. I think I just have to wait for the right time. Time will prove everything. So, for the mean time...let it be...
Tired tired. Sleeping quite late for the past few days cause need to download songs. While waiting to download songs, I chatted with Jan Sen, Jeremy, Chris, Jason, Colin and Eu Jin. Colin went off without saying goodbye, Eu Jin left quite early cause he was sleepy, Jan Sen and Jeremy went off quite at the same time. Jason and Chris busy playin games in computer centre. Gosh, therefore I make myself busy by looking out for songs.
Now words can't even describe how I feel....emotionless? No.. I'm still laughing at silly jokes cracked by my colleagues. Feel down when I listen to sad crappy love songs. Missing someone badly? Erm...yeah. But why somehow I feel as though I am so emotionless. Maybe I've been thinking too much lately. Thinking about things that I shouldn't have been thinking, or maybe I should say, bothering me. I guess that's why I feel so emotionless.
Well, I felt good that everyone supported me to tell him. But guys, I am afraid I don't have the guts!! He's not really talking to me lately. Busy? Maybe yeah. I think I just have to wait for the right time. Time will prove everything. So, for the mean time...let it be...
Tired tired. Sleeping quite late for the past few days cause need to download songs. While waiting to download songs, I chatted with Jan Sen, Jeremy, Chris, Jason, Colin and Eu Jin. Colin went off without saying goodbye, Eu Jin left quite early cause he was sleepy, Jan Sen and Jeremy went off quite at the same time. Jason and Chris busy playin games in computer centre. Gosh, therefore I make myself busy by looking out for songs.
<>Time might lead me to nowhere; Fate might break me into pieces.
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 12:50 AM |
Saturday, December 04, 2004
Another day has passed, solely. Tiring, as usual, but today extra tired. I slept quite late last night, because I was downloading songs. Why? What to do, have to wait for that particular song to be done. Gosh, damn tiring to do.
I saw a lot of people today. Suet Mei, Tan Hern Yen, Jun, Pat Syn, Jun's mom...and erm tis fella lar...whoever he is but used to be from the same tuition as me.. Or should I say, my friend's ex-boyfriend. Last night saw Chee Yang and bro, he brought him shopping. Den met one of my tuition mates yesterday, Wai Weng if I'm not wrong, workin in Parade also.
Gosh, I realise not many people working this year. Cuz apparently, a lot are not hiring male workers. Why I wonder? Gender discrimination. This is bad man. OOh.....I also saw this guy today, older than me two years but a few of my friends thinks that he's 'leng chai'. Neh, still look the same as last year. It's been a year since I last saw him...hahahaa. crazy little gurl am I?
Well, Elwyn said I am wiser now, compared to last time. Carissa said that I'm the only one who can see that she's happy. But that doesn't bother me much. The problem I have is still bothering me. Joey asked me to tell him, even though she doesn't know what I am talking about. Hmm.. I was worried the whole day through and I was thinking a lot today. About my problems, what am I gonna do in my life, people in Ausmat and friends.
Heard of this song Endless Road by some chinese fella before? I think his name is Lin Jun Jie. It's a English song though; but it's seriously nice. I think by the time I quit my job, I would have memorize loads of chinese songs. Everyday I hear songs from Kelly Chan, Sammi Cheng, Jay Chou and etc. Haha...nuts!!!
I miss all my friends in KL. Now the only thing I could do is to chat with them online. I miss kacauing people like Candy (Uncle David), small boy (Jansen), Helen of Sparta (Halim), baby boy (Jason), horny porny (Wilson), banana (Quan Ming) and etc.... and also tokin to people like Sue Lin, Joey, Kit, Carina (all the pillow talks), Val, Macha, Chris....well, I mean arguing with him.. Amirul, Colin..... gosh...these people are way too nice. Miss everyone loads... :'(
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:53 PM |
Friday, December 03, 2004
Well...second day of work....yeah, it's still a tiring job but what to do, at least better than stoning at home. I can't be watching tv or goin online 24/7, so this is what I've gotta do.
I can at least adapt better today. Talked more to my colleagues. Well, the most least I dun feel that bored...hahahaha. Well, better get use to it, I still have another few more months to go before my next journey...
To tell or not tell?
I have this huge problem that has been bothering me for the past few days. I was wondering, should I tell him or not? If I tell him, I's scared I will lose my friendship with him. What should I do? I am so confused. Haha....I am tryin to run away from it, but I seriously can't! Even when I am workin, I keep on thinking about it. Gosh..help me out. I need to talk to someone about it!!!
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:48 PM |
Yesterday was the ever first time I went for my first job. Ok la, this job that I am currently doin is my first job. Gosh, it's so so so tiring. Then I realise I am not really good at all at communicating with people. At first, I didn't talk to my colleagues. But after a whole day long, yeah, I did talk to them.
I slept early last night, the first time for my whole entire year..(well, besides if I'm sick) I slept at about 10.30p.m. Guess what time I woke up today, I woke up at 11.15a.m. Haha, amazing huh? 12 hours of sleep...sorry la, but it's serious tiring.
I wonder, how are all my other Ausmat friends doing? Fine? I heard Affendi's working in TGI Fridays, Amir working as office boy and a few more here and there. Carina's just plain busy with her driving and I assume Pragash is also busy with his driving. Chris is working in GSC. I have no idea what Jason, Amirul and Quan Ming doin. Joey just came back from her holiday...Hope she enjoyed it!!!
And as for my friends in Ipoh, they're just busy with getting ready for form 6. Next year is the year for them, their finals!! Mostly busy attending tuition classes so I also don't wanna bother them.
Believe in yourself, have faith and everything's gonna be alright!!!!
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:32 AM |
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
I kept on telling myself, "I believe I will make it through college days as my battle during high school is over. Have faith in yourself!!"
Last year, I was busy with my school activities. Represented the school choir (we won the District I competition. Then we went for state level and got 3rd). Then of course I was the head of AVA in the librarian board, the I.U. Director for Interact Club and secretary for the school's co-op. Well thank goodness it's over cuz it's really tiring but it was fun.
I went USA last year after my SPM with my family. We celebrated Christmas in Las Vegas. Later we went to San Francisco and I was lucky enough to experience snowing for the first time. Lastly, we celebrated New Year in Los Angeles. (and yeah, I pass by orange county)
Another journey ended and a new one begins. I enrolled myself in Sunway College under AUSMAT, Australian Matriculation before I went USA. The next day I arrived from USA - it was the first day of orientation. I was praying hard that I could adapt to the new environment. I keep on telling myself, "Believe in yourself! Be friendly and smile!!! Make new friends!!" And yes, I manage to adapt well and I met a lot of great people.
Through out the year, we have experienced a lot of things together. Happy, sad, joyful, sorrowful and many more....sweet moments together. Sadly, it has come to an end. It's sad but true, Ausmat ended. I will miss all my friends a lot. Another journey ended and I have to continue to choose the road I want to take. I do not want to regret in future about the road not taken. But one thing's for sure; I believe I made the right decision by enrolling for AUSMAT 2004....
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @ 2:11 AM |
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