Fly Me To The Moon
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
What more can I say? Fill with disappointment and sadness. Tears will run out very soon. Heart smashed into pieces.....
Wow, I sound very 'd pei'. Haha...well, it's true.
I saw my close friend, M again. But then, she didn't even take the effort to say hello. Apparently, she's really angry at me. For what reason, I have no idea. Maybe because I am close to her ex, that's why. But am I wrong being close to someone? We're just friends. Someone once told me that whenever I am with her ex when they were still together, she feels very insecure. Gosh... I felt bad after that and I never talk to her ex anymore but it's real weird if I don't. It's not that I am sensitive or what but it's really proven that she's angry at me. There was this once when PT was online, and of course I was online too, she invited me into their conversation. Not long after I have joined the conersation, M left. Later on, PT asked M why did she left the conversation? She told PT that she and me 'tak ngam d'. Isn't that sad to hear?
Besides that..the "to tell or not to tell" problem is still not over. It is still bothering me one in a while. Tried not to think of it. But when I try not to think of it, dat fella will just appear online and talk to me. Gosh...I have no idea what to do. He already starts to complain that I am treating him cool, not talking to him much, and our conversations are very very dry. When I see him face to face, I have to wear a thick mask and act. Am I casting for The Phantom Of The Opera? I think I qualify to become the Phantom.
Sigh. Another thing is I am disappointed, real disappointed. I tried calling my best friend, but she is not around. Then when I message her and told her I need to talk, she asked me to call her at night. But just now, she message me and told me, can we talk tomorrow instead? She knows I wouldn't do that if I don't really need to talk. I tried askin her out yesterday, but she turn me down. Ever since I am back, all she tells me is all about D. And seriously, I never get a chance to talk to her like the way we used to.
Gosh, everything change. I seriously do think so. Joey, you're right. I can't be mentioning their names 24/7 or telling them about you guys. And friends do come and go. Well, I guess I will lose a big bunch of friends...
*sobs sobs*
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