Soul Mate
Saturday, July 30, 2005
...Who can wrestle with me and let me win.
...Who i can talk to about anything
...Who laughs at my jokes.
...Who puts my cold hands in his warm hoodie
pockets.
...Who lets me use his sweatshirt for a pillow.
...Who says "I Love You" & means it.
...Who will kiss me in the rain, in the sunshine,
and in the snow.
...Who calls unexpectedly.
...Who will have many inside jokes with me and
remember each one.
...A boy who notices haircuts.
...Who realizes that i say things but dont always
mean them.
...Who i can go swimming with on hot days.
...Who can tell me his problems and let me help.
...Who will listen to me talk
...Who will let me beat him up when i get angry.
...Who writes love letters to me
...Who draws me pictures
...Who saves his genuine, big smiles for me.
...With deep eyes, that can see through faces into
depths.
...Who wears baseball hats and lets me wear his
too.
...Who gives me his t-shirt to change into and not
expect to get it back.
...Who knows my favorite color, song, car,
vegetable, perfume and fave. movie
...Who will shake my dads hand and look my mom
in the eye.
...Who knows my full name-- first, middle and last.
...Who willl know when something is wrong when
im trying my best to put on an act
...Who will kiss me and tell me im cute.
...Who will let me cry to him.
...Who will hold me& kiss my cheek.
...Who suprises me and compliments and plays
with my hair.
...Who will brag about me to all of his friends
...Who's Not afraid to give me a great big hug right
in front of his mom
...Who isn't afraid 2 hold me infront of his friends
and not get embarassed
...Who smells like he just stepped out of the
shower.
...Who tells me i have a nice laugh and a smile
that lights up the room and simply be mine to hold.
Does he actually exist? i am pretty sure he does. do you guys know that everyone of us has a flirt buddy? he or she is actually someone that is like your gf or bf but you know nothing can happen between you guys. he or she will always be there for you all the time, listen to all your stories like about the guy or the girl you like, tease you all the time, do treat you like a brother or sister, yes, a lot of people will have misunderstood that you guys are together that kind of thing but deep within, both of you know that nothing could happen between you guys. but sometimes, it might go over the boundaries. do becareful!
why am i saying all these? well, these days i have been hearing a lot of different stories about people. from guys and also from girls. some of them are facing problem with their the other half, arguements popping out all the time, throwing out words they didn't really mean to say, and in the end, regret about it. some of them are cuz of the distance between them and the other half. some are cause by the appearance of the opposite sex which attracts them. i have no idea what am i crapping here but it's true. these are all the general issues that arised lately. that is why is good to know that you have a flirt buddy!! haha...
sad to say but a lot of things happen. i heard a few of my friends telling me things which i hope did not happen. wow, what is love? love, undefined. it's too powerful to say it just like that. but guys, if you do like that someone, tell him or her. no point hiding it. if you are just waiting for the other half to make the move, i believe that day might never come. aiyor, i am crapping again. ignore me, just need to crap things out.
well, life's pretty good with me so far. i do not really care searching for my soul mate cause i know one fine day i wil find him. for the mean time, i just wanna have fun. do you know it's fun to have your friends all around you all the time? and meeting new people is really really interesting? yeah, i lurve it baby!
ended one short semester but found a lot of new friends too in this semester. damn syok. sad part is, i still have to see most of them a lot cuz they are doin engineering, same as what i am doin. gosh, somebody save me!!
haha, anywayz, i think that's all for now. i have no idea what i am crapping about here in this post but hope you guys are aware of it. these are all in general, read from magazines. i think why don't just become a columnist one fine day? i believe i could make it big. haha, just jk. people, need someone to talk to..haha...MAIL ME!! hehe....;-)
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @
3:41 PM |
OVER
Monday, July 25, 2005
Cause the world is spinning,
And i'm still living
Wohoo! One down, one to go. Finished one paper today and it was precalculus. well, was not too tough. i was freakin out last night, cause i didn't really study much. then i was too scared i woke up early and studied. thank god, the paper was not too tough. hopefully i could score for that paper. i need that okay!
well, can't believe one semester is over so soon. i met a lot of very very interesting people, like Han Guan - my horny-always masturbating-perverted-little-asshole-brother; Choon Yee (hopefully i got the spelling right)- might seem to look quiet but he's actually very noisy when you get to know him; William - worse guy i ever known (but actually a nice friend la but some might know what he's up to.. hehe(cheeky smile); Elsie - my good friend in WMU as we can click easily and she's damn farnie okay; Wilson - yeah yeah, yet another Wilson but doesn't really know him well as I only get to kacau him or should i say he only got to kacau me only the last few days of the semester; Desmond - wow, erm one of my friends' ex-bf and he's in my course (he saw me around in ipoh and he recognizes me from then..wow); Andrew - aiyar, a farnie guy who doesn't give a damn; Ji Wey - erm.. no comment but he's always with his FCUK t-shirt; Okery William - a very nice senior and he's the WAT"S UP MAN type.. haha, cuz he's a Nigerian; Musa - yeah, Han Guan's 50 cent in M'sia as he likes to rap; Kenneth - man, he's a joker man, always crapping around; Phuern Fong - shy but noisy, and he kacau me once in a while too; Chi Hoong - another classmate of mine who kacau me only the last few days of the semester; Sharon - a very shy and quiet girl. Well, i think so far i am considered friends with these bunch la. The others i am not so sure if we're friends or just acquaintance.
oh yeah, i went shopping the other day and i owe carina money now cuz i got no money in my bank account. hehe.. bought a lot of tops and a nice new jacket for a very reasonable price. haha.. those in sunway will know cause they will be seing me in it. haha;-) and when i was shopping, i saw my very-blur-leng-chai who's also in WMU in CK shop. Damn, he's blur and cute... erm.. not too cute but blur cute type. haha..sue lin knows what i'm talking about here. and i think he's either japanese or korean. so, wait, waiting to check him out more. today, when he came into the exam hall, he looked so blur man like he has no idea what on earth is goin on here. haha. then later when i was with Carina, Rachel, Wilson and Kit at the tepanyaki corner, he was just the table next to us. Whew, damn cute la that fella cuz he look damn blur. he ain't no mr hot but somehow he just attract me to look how blur he is? haha..;-) but i wun be seeing this blurry for a month cuz we got our semester break. but it's ok. cause he appeared a few times in front of me today.. actually a lot of times as though it was on purpose. haha;-)
i wonder how's my timetable be for the next semester. hopefully it's not too pack cuz i need to take 4 subjects. Die man.. haha.. but wish me the best of luck for my results and have a nice holiday! (it's weird when you wish that to yourself)
haha;-)
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @
4:05 PM |
MENTAL HEALTH
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
o i sound crazy? yes i do. well, tis is a very normal situation where people like us do face, craziness. all of us suffers mental health problems. it's just that we do not know about it. i am currently doing this english presentation on this topic, mental health. i find it pretty interesting as there are facts proving that most of us do suffer mental health problems without us realizing it. what are examples that i am saying we're crazy? well, anxiety, stress, depression, eating disorders (this most of us do know about it), bipolar, mood swings and etc.learn more about it and read about it online and you will know what are the problems that could occur and categorized as mental health problem.
well, i got back my mid-sem paper for my precalculus today. 59.3%???? what is tis man? i can't believe it. i was so pissed and sad at the same time so i went back to have a look at my mistakes. yes, i do admit i expected it to be bad but not till that bad? i went through the paper and tada, i found that my lecturer forgotten to add another 10 marks for me, meaning in other words, he forgotten to calculate that question. haha, so in other words, i get like 69.3%. Whew, a heart-attack man. one classmate of mine, who seemed to care less about work, he got 93% When one of my classmates, Ji Wey told me that Desmond got 93% i was very very shocked to hear that. But it's good for him, a good sign for him.
another thing i found out was Jay. MR JAY said i looked different this year. he asked if i changed my whole wardrobe or something? obviously i did not but maybe somehow my clothes look a bit more boho this year. BY THE WAY, I BOUGHT THIS VERY NIc MNG TOP FOR ONLY 25 BUCKS YESTERDAY. IT'S SO NICE AND IT LOOKS A BIT BOHO-ISH!! haha, new term i'm using. but i am still ME!! haha. Jay also complimented Carina, Kit and I saying we were the -in- group people last year. whew, never knew we were so -in-. hahaha....
talking about being in the -in- group or being an -in- person, there's this classmate of mine, F. Gosh man, she's like flirting with all the guys and trying to be cool and extreme friendly with everyone. in other words, she's really trying to hard to be the popular babe or being the -in- person or something. my other friend, Elsie (she's pretty close to me in WMU) thinks the same way too. and both of us do feel that she's tryin really too hard but it seems not working.. sorry to be mean but it's a fact. we have another guy friend, William, gosh, known as Mr Blur, always surrounded by either F or another girl. we were like, are they tryin to hook up with william or something? haha... we're just fooling around, chilling out in life.
well, soon MONASH PEOPLE will be back. yup and yeah, i wonder how things might go now. hopefully everything turns out fine or else i will be the one starting to scream. haha..
stress stress baby. less than two weeks time, i will my my finals and that's it for this semester. it's a wohoo cuz i will have a month break again but it's not a wohoo when you come to think of it, the next sem is gonna be worse as i need to do 4 subjects. hopefully everything turns out fine for me and i will be able to cope with it... ;-)
teruterubozu....
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @
9:40 PM |
Yi Lu Xiang Bei
Saturday, July 09, 2005
一路向北
Yi Lu Xiang Bei
Composer: Jay Chou (周杰倫) Lyricist: Vincent Fong (方文山)
後視鏡裡的世界
hou shi jing li de shi jie
越來越遠的道別
yue lai yue yuan de dao bie
妳轉身向背
ni zhuan shen xiang bei
側臉還是很美
ce lian hai shi hen mei
我用眼光去追
wo yong yan guang qu zhui
竟聽見妳的淚
jing ting jian ni de lei
在車窗外面徘徊
zai che chuang wai mian pai huai
是我錯失的機會
shi wo cuo shi de ji hui
妳站的方位
ni zhan de fang wei
跟我中間隔著淚
gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei
街景一直在後退
jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui
妳的崩潰在窗外零碎
ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui
我一路向北
wo yi lu xiang bei
離開有妳的季節
li kai you ni de ji jie
妳說妳好累
ni shuo ni hao lei
已無法再愛上誰
yi wu fa zai ai shang shui
風在山路吹
feng zai shan lu chui
過往的畫面全都是我不對
guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui
細數慚愧
xi shu can kui
我傷妳幾回
wo shang ni ji hui
後視鏡裡的世界
hou shi jing li de shi jie
越來越遠的道別
yue lai yue yuan de dao bie
妳轉身向背
ni zhuan shen xiang bei
側臉還是很美
ce lian hai shi hen mei
我用眼光去追
wo yong yan guang qu zhui
竟聽見妳的淚
jing ting jian ni de lei
在車窗外面徘徊
zai che chuang wai mian pai huai
是我錯失的機會
shi wo cuo shi de ji hui
妳站的方位
ni zhan de fang wei
跟我中間隔著淚
gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei
街景一直在後退
jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui
妳的崩潰在窗外零碎
ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui
我一路向北
wo yi lu xiang bei
離開有妳的季節
li kai you ni de ji jie
妳說妳好累
ni shuo ni hao lei
已無法再愛上誰
yi wu fa zai ai shang shui
風在山路吹
feng zai shan lu chui
過往的畫面全都是我不對
guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui
細數慚愧
xi shu can kui
我傷妳幾回
wo shang ni ji hui
我一路向北
wo yi lu xiang bei
離開有妳的季節
li kai you ni de ji jie
方向盤周圍
fang xiang pan zhou wei
迴轉著我的後悔
hui zhuan zhe wo de hou hui
我加速超越
wo jia su chao yue
卻甩不掉緊緊跟隨的傷悲
que shuai bu diao jin jin gen sui de shang bei
細數慚愧
xi shu can kui
我傷妳幾回
wo shang ni ji hui
停止狼狽
ting zhi lang bei
就讓錯純粹
jiu rang cuo chun cui
All The Way North
The world in the rear view mirror
Says goodbye further and further away
You turn around towards your back
The side of your face is still very beautiful
I use my vision to chase
I unexpectedly hear your tears
Lingering outside the car window
Is the chance I missed
You are standing in position
Tears across the middle of you and me
The view of the street has been recoiling all along
The bits and pieces of your collapse are outside the window
I go all the way north
Leaving the season that has you
You say you are very tired
You already have no way to fall in love with anyone else
The wind blows on the mountain road
The frames in the past are all my wrongs
Counting the shame
How many times I hurt you
The world in the rear view mirror
Says goodbye further and further away
You turn around towards your back
The side of your face is still very beautiful
I use my vision to chase
I unexpectedly hear your tears
Lingering outside the car window
Is the chance I missed
You are standing in position
Tears across the middle of you and me
The view of the street has been recoiling all along
The bits and pieces of your collapse are outside the window
I go all the way north
Leaving the season that has you
You say you are very tired
You already have no way to fall in love with anyone else
The wind blows on the mountain road
The frames in the past are all my wrongs
Counting the shame
How many times I hurt you
I go all the way north
Leaving the season that has you
The steering wheel encompasses
Rotating around my regrets
I speed up to exceed it
Yet I can’t lose the grief following closely
Counting the shame
How many times I hurt you
Stop the heartlessness
Just let wrong be pure
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @
2:37 PM |
All The Way Up North
Who am I? Isn’t this a nice question to ponder upon? Yes, all the way up north is a song by Jay Chou, for the movie Initial D. Am I going crazy about Initial D? No, I’m not. It’s just that I like to watch it as it stars Jay Chou and of course, the beautiful cars and the racing…haha…
Feeling very stressed out for the past few days. Yes, I felt better after watching Initial D but somehow, it’s just temporary. I’m still feeling stress somehow. And I have no idea how I could cope with it. What is this man? Coming to me at the wrong time. But I guess I still have to cope with it.
I felt so sad when I know they don’t relly care much anymore. Tried calling him but failed. Damn frustrating you know. So what, when he expects me to be there, I was there. But when I expect him to be there for me, tada, surprise, I’m not free. What is this man? Tis sound so insane. I can’t stand it anymore man. Feel so used in a way. I’m not tryin to prove anything but just wanna release my anger. This is not the first time….. but I guess it might be the last time….
I came to realise a few things. Seriously, sometimes you really can’t depend on anyone for your own problems. Yes, you do need someone to talk to but he or she won’t be there 24/7. So still, you will have to go through it yourself somehow. And life’s so unpredictable. You do not know what happens tomorrow. The terrorist attack happen yesterday in London is a very good example.
For all you know, tomorrow might be the last day for you. So, do things you wanna do know. If you like a guy, tell him and if you like a girl, go after her. No point of being shy when you don’t even know what the ending is. Do not create your own ending cause for all you know, it might be a happy ending. And for those of you guys out there who is currently in a relationship, well, if you guys are already in your 3rd month and still things are not working out, forget about it. Just give up and break it off. No point of hanging on to one relationship when you know there is no happy ending. Those who passed through this, then it might be a good sign but still you have to look at it maybe on your 6th month or 1 year and so on.
And for those who are single, do not worry if you do not get into one. Please do not make yourself so desperado and look like a slut. There is this friend of mine totally change somehow. Maybe it’s because everyone around her is coupled up. So she felt lonely and she needs a guy too. Gosh, this is sad man. What’s the point of simply grabbing a guy and tell him, hey dude, it’s over! It’s gonna hurt everyoe’s feeling somehow and you’ll lose your friendship.
Haiz, what a world. Things are changing in a way or two. There have been a lot asking, why am I not in a relationship? Well, it’s simply because it’s not the right time I guess. In my heart, there is still some torns that I can’t pull out and still need to mend a few holes.
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @
1:16 AM |
Something to ponder upon
Thursday, July 07, 2005
For the life of me,
I am still tryin,
To purely understand what it means,
Deep within,
It's dark and cold,
Walk through it,
It's not easy,
Be strong and courageous,
For there is nothing to fear,
I will live my life,
As how it was meant to be.
Haha, look, I'm trying to act like a poet now. Well, I did poetry analysys the other day in my English class. Somehow in a way, I enjoy my class but in another way, I hate my class. Can't really blame cuz the dumb me is so dumb that sometimes I don't get what my lecturer wants actually.
Still feel stressed out, but I really felt a lot more better after watching Initial D yesterday. Haha, watched it twice man. Once with my classmate, Elsie and yesterday with Sue Lin and Elwyn. Well, sorry Sue and Elwyn, I watched it before you guys. I know I promised to watch with you guys but I just can't help it though. SORRY!!
Like what Sue and Elwyn said, Jay is a bit emotionless in the movie. But I think he did quite a good job for him as an amateur actor. Maybe more acting will help him to improve. But I do like his song from the movie, All The Way Up North. Cool dude!
Haiz, gtg for now la. Nothing to update so far. Chioz!!
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @
4:34 PM |
Stress man, stress
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Edward Norton, the lead actor of 25th hour said fuck 40 times within 5 minutes.
Stress, stress, fucking stress. Watched 25th hour yesterday and I felt that this world is actually so fucked-up man! True. I had my precalculus mid-sem paper today and I am totally screwed by it. I am definitely gonna do so badly for it. But man, it's just pre-cal, what more when it reaches calculus? Gosh, I am so gonna work hard to score for my finals man. I can't afford to screw up all my papers. As for English, my God, my English is not that freakin bad after all right. But when it comes to doin Eng 161, gosh, I could only afford a credit, and I'm not sure if it's a low credit or a high credit. I so need to do well for my papers man. Well, though I might not be in the Dean's List, but the most least I could do is to score a CGPA of 3 and above, I guess.
Phew, so stressed out and yet no one for me to talk to. Shed tears last night and when I was listening to one of Jay's song, I feel like crying even more. Now I have to do a few things in mind. One, I have to think twice on whether I should continue with my major or change it to Computer Engineering. 2nd, I need to concentrate on my studies and score for it this semester as this is somehow like a basic semester. 3rd, hmm.. enjoy the peace on Earth.
I met Lawrence, the lecturere yesterday. He threw me a lot of questions that I felt extreme stress after listening to it. Damn, he's playing psychology with me man. A lot of questions that I never really thought of, came up to me yesterday and when I was thinking bout it, plus together with my exam stress.. BANG, tears rolled down my cheeks.
I can't imagine myself in this situation yet again. I so wanted to call up my good friends but in the end, I decided not to. I am a grown up now and I should decide things by myself. Yes, my friends are gonna be there for me but is it forever? Sudden realisation that though I might have a lot of friends, but they can't be there for you or next to you 24/7. There will be times when you have to face things all by yourself. I am trying to struggle through this stage of life and hopefully, I could really go through it!
Gotta go for now... need to catch up with assignment..............
Isabel _ b l o g g e d _ @
3:35 PM |