Edward Norton, the lead actor of 25th hour said fuck 40 times within 5 minutes.
Stress, stress, fucking stress. Watched 25th hour yesterday and I felt that this world is actually so fucked-up man! True. I had my precalculus mid-sem paper today and I am totally screwed by it. I am definitely gonna do so badly for it. But man, it's just pre-cal, what more when it reaches calculus? Gosh, I am so gonna work hard to score for my finals man. I can't afford to screw up all my papers. As for English, my God, my English is not that freakin bad after all right. But when it comes to doin Eng 161, gosh, I could only afford a credit, and I'm not sure if it's a low credit or a high credit. I so need to do well for my papers man. Well, though I might not be in the Dean's List, but the most least I could do is to score a CGPA of 3 and above, I guess.
Phew, so stressed out and yet no one for me to talk to. Shed tears last night and when I was listening to one of Jay's song, I feel like crying even more. Now I have to do a few things in mind. One, I have to think twice on whether I should continue with my major or change it to Computer Engineering. 2nd, I need to concentrate on my studies and score for it this semester as this is somehow like a basic semester. 3rd, hmm.. enjoy the peace on Earth.
I met Lawrence, the lecturere yesterday. He threw me a lot of questions that I felt extreme stress after listening to it. Damn, he's playing psychology with me man. A lot of questions that I never really thought of, came up to me yesterday and when I was thinking bout it, plus together with my exam stress.. BANG, tears rolled down my cheeks.
I can't imagine myself in this situation yet again. I so wanted to call up my good friends but in the end, I decided not to. I am a grown up now and I should decide things by myself. Yes, my friends are gonna be there for me but is it forever? Sudden realisation that though I might have a lot of friends, but they can't be there for you or next to you 24/7. There will be times when you have to face things all by yourself. I am trying to struggle through this stage of life and hopefully, I could really go through it!
Gotta go for now... need to catch up with assignment..............
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